haix...
y are u doing this to me??
do u reli tink i lyk it?!
well,as a matter of fact NO!
im very much hating it!
i hate boeing in lurv with anyone!
i hat it!i hate it!I HATE IT!
i hate it more than i hate myself!!
idk if this is wad u call [[real love]]or anyting but whatsoever it is,i dun care!
i dun give a damn anymore!
&& ya noe wad???!
if i cud promise myself sumting & i will nvr break that promise,
i noe that the promise will b that i am NEVER going to stead/love anyone anymore..
well,that is except for my family and my BFFs..
other than that,NO ONE!
& if i can,
im gonna keep that promise til the dae i die!
GET THAT???!
i hate that guy i love!i hate my life!
heyy,ppl sae that its our life,so we are the one who decide abt our future,but isn't that wrong?
i mean lyk,allah is the one who controls us..he can let us go through things we dunt wanna go through..
so that means...
he wants me to b in love with HYM??
lyk,im alredi trying my best to get hym outta my life..
so why is allah torturing me so much??
wad wrong have i done??
plz!wadever it is,U dunt hve to make me fall in love with HYM!
all i can hope for rite now is that i wont get into my old habit...hopefully..
i dun wanna slit my hand!i dun wanna do all the wrong tings!
i wanna have a gd lyfe without any trouble..
but since allah controls me,i will juz let things pass..
let it go as He wants it to be...
okae..
i juz wanna express my feelings..
not anyting other than that...
so,i tink im done with this post..
okae?!
bubbye now!